Thank you for sharing what it's like to live life apart from God. The Bible also describes what it's like to live for God:
> “The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way.” Psalm 37:23
> "In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:6
> "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you." Psalm 32:8
